My cloud / Moj oblak

The “new” trend with adding every possible information that one has in a cloud on a server somewhere reminds me somehow of having my own cloud in my head with hundreds of thoughts constantly crossing my mind and I have no time to sort them. Today is the first time since ages where I left both kids in kindergarten, even if Adrian is staying just 2hrs. Long enough not to sit around there but too short to go back home.

“Novi” trend gdje sve moguće informacije stavljaš u oblak na nekim serverima me podsjeća na moj oblak u glavi gdje skupljam na stotine misli bez ikakve šanse da ih sortiram. Danas je prvi dan na duugo vremena gdje sam ostavila oboje djece u jaslicama, iako je Adrian samo 2 h ostao. Dovoljno dugo da ne čekam tamo, dovoljno kratko da mi se ne isplati kući otići. 
Ada is in the “Frozen” -world… / Ada u svijetu “Frozen”

I, on the other hand, ended up in a XXXL möbeln. Strolling around there I realized how genious Ikea is when it comes to selling things and how bad XXXL is. I am sure I would increase the turnover in XXXL for at least 2-3% if I could put things as I want them to. Strolling around here made me also think of my stock investments and my wish to get stocks where sustainability is an issue. I am also thinking of a friend that I am not managing to get on phone for ages now. Adrian is also becoming 1 year soon. How could the year pass so fast? I met a friend that is always having tons of stories and with whom I can chat forever. I have hundreds of thing I want to do or experience but for now these have concentrated to one…sleep. Sleep depriviation with kids is a killer! And so on and so on. Still lucky me I got a really fun and interesting book from one of my best friends that I highly recommend. So in all “my cloud” at least I can enjoy a book for a couple of minutes 🙂
Tako sam ja završila u XXXL prodavnici namještaja. Kako sam tamo malo šetala skontala sam koliko su genijalni vlasnici od Ikea. Sigurna sam kad bih ja poredala stvari kako ja hoću u XXXL da bi im barem za 2-3 % obrt skočio. 
Tako isto, dok sam se šetala, sam razmišljala o svojim dionicama i moju želju da buduće investicije budu više usmjerene prema održivost. 
Razmišljam o jednoj prijateljici koju nikako da uhvatim na telefon. 
Adrian je uskoro godinu dana. Kako tako brzo prođe godina?
Srela sam prijateljicu s kojom uvijek mogu stotine stvari da razglabam i satima možemo da pričamo. 
Ima stotinu stvari koje bih htjela uraditi i doživiti koje su se sve svele na jednu… da se dobro naspavam. Manjak spavanja kad imaš djecu je baš ubitačan.
Itd.itd. 
Ipak kako imam sreće dobila sam jednu pravo smiješnu i zanimljivu knjigu od jedne od mojih najbolji prijateljica.  Knjigu “Bringing up Bebe” preporučujem za čitati. 
Tako da iako je “moj oblak” pun barem mogu par minuta da oćeifim dobrom knjigom. 🙂

First day in kindergarten / Prvi dan u jaslicama

For me, it was a big day today. My little boy went to kindergarten for the first time. It felt awkward because he is so little. Ada was 2,5 years when she started and was already speaking two languages. Adrian is not speaking any language and I fear that he will not be understood when he needs something. On the other hand he loves children so it should be fine 🙂
In kindergarten I react on the differences between the Swedish and German system. For example, here the induction takes 4-6 weeks! In Sweden it was a week at most (as far as I remember).
Another thing that caught my eyes is that in Sweden children eat some snack like half a banana or apple (or some other fruit) around 10h so that they don´t get too hungry until lunch. Here they got one mais curl as snack. Adrian doesn’t even like it so I am pretty sure that Adrian, that is used to eat much more, will loose some weight in the beginning before he gets used to it.
Danas je bio važan dan. Moj mali dječak je po prvi put išao u jaslice. Čudno se osjećalo jer je tako malen. Ada je ipak bila 2.5 godine kad je krenula i već je 2 jezika pričala dok Adrian ni jedan ne priča. Pitam se hoće li znati pokazati šta hoće,ali u drugu ruku voli djecu tako da bi mu trebalo biti fino.
U jaslicama sam primjetila neke razlike između Švedskog i Njemaćkog sistema. Recimo uškolavanje (ili kako se to zove) traje 4-6 sedmica. U Švedskoj ti niko živ ne bi išao u vrtić toliko vremena. Tamo je maksimalno sedmica- dvije (ako je ekstremni neki slučaj) i dijete odmah ostave same.
Druga velika razlika je da u Švedskoj jedu pola voća banane, jabuke ili nešto drugo oko 10h da ne pregladne do 12h. Ovdje dobiju jedan smoki, koji još na to Adrian baš i ne gotivi. Sigurna sam da će Adrian ispočetka smršati dok se ne uhoda.

The German elections 2017/ Njemački izbori 2017

I will never forget a lesson in school, I was maybe 14-15 years and we were discussing the nazis and the right extremists and the need of dialog. Two guys asking me if I believe that one should have a dialogue with extremists. They too believed in democracy and the right that everyone should talk.
Back then I was not sure but I (still) believed that one could talk with extremists. I said to the boys that I believe everyone should get the chance. One could talk logic to them. That should make them understand.

Today, a war later, a devasted country later, a 9/11 later, many experiences later, many elections later I believe that I was so childishly naive.
Therefore I was not even surprised about the German elections. I wasn’t surprised about AFD- (the right extremists) being the winners of these elections. I was actually just waiting for it.

I have realised that talking to extremists is like talking to a wall. They don’t get it. Extremists just understand the power of violence.

Another thing I strongly start to believe in is that one should forbid this kind of parties or demonstrations.
Why?
Because it is like any PR, the more you see it the more normal it becomes. Just imagine before 9/11 how people where talking about muslims, and how they are talking today. Common people saying things that were unimaginable before 9/11.
Today, I believe that the only thing that works to change the mind of these people is to actively work already in elementary schools with very very competent special educated teachers to crush the hate in its cradle.
It is like taking out a fire in the beginning and not wait for it to become a huge forest fire.
Since, we don´t do that… I believe worse times will come.Nikad neću zaboraviti čas, bila sam nekih 14-15 godina, i diskutovali smo naciste i desničare i potrebu za dialogom. Dvojica su me pitali da li ja vjerujem da treba pričati sa ekstremistima. Oni su vjerovali u demokratiju i pravo svakog glasa, svako da priča šta hoće.
Tad nisam bila sigurna ali sam (još uvijek) vjerovala u to da se može pričati sa tim ekstremima. Rekla sam dječacima da svi trebaju dobiti šansu. Ako logićno sa ekstremima pričamo razumijeće.

Danas, jedan rat kasnije, jednu devastiranu državu kasnije, jedan 11 septembar kasnije, mnogo iskustava kasnije, mnogo glasanja kasnije vidim kako sam dječije naivna bila.
Zato, se nisam čudila rezultatim njemačkih izbora i da je Afd bio veliki pobjednik. Ja sam to očekivala.

Shvatila sam da pričati sa ekstremima da je to kao zidom pričati. Ekstremisti samo razumiju silu. 

Druga stvar u koju sam počela vjerovati je da treba ove partije i demonstracije zabraniti.
Zašto?
Jer je to kao i svaka reklama. Uđe ti u glavu, navikneš se, bude ti normalno.
Podsjetite se kako je bilo prije 11.g septembra kako se pričalo o npr. muslimanima, a šta se danas od prosječnih ljudi čuje. Komentari koji su bili nezamisljivi prije.

Danas, vjerujem da je jedini način da se sve ovo smiri da se već u osnovnim školama radi. Da vrlo kompetentni specijalni pedagozi rade sa djecom i da ne dopuste da se to sjeme mržnje posadi.
To je kao da ugasiš vatru na vrijeme prije nego što postane šumski požar.
Ali, pošto mi to ne radimo…vjerujem da nas čekaju gora vremena…

2017 Pag

After 3 months (with exception of some few days of being in Karlsruhe) I finally came back to Karlsruhe. During these three months I have been in the energy boosting Sweden, in Croatia and in our summer house in Bosnia. I just love the life of travelling and I believe I could travel the whole year. I wonder how that will work when I start working again :/
During this time I have experienced so many things and I have so many things to write about and I hope I will get the time for it eventually.
Greetings for now! 🙂

Nakon 3 mjeseca (sa par dana izuzetka kad smo bili u Karlsruhe) smo se napokon vratili u Karlsruhe. Kroz ova tri mjeseca smo bili u energiju-davajuću  Švedsku, u Hrvatskoj i u našoj kući u Bosni. Stvarno volim život gdje se putuje i ubjeđena sam da bih mogla čitavu godinu putovati. Pitam se samo kako će to ići kad ponovo počnem raditi:/
Kroz ovo vrijeme sam dosta stvari doživjela koje hoću da zapišem i potrudiću se da ću nađem vremena za to. Pozdrav za sada 🙂

Mamama

Last time Adrian said mama I got so happy and thought this is it, but there and then he never said it again until yesterday:) He was sitting in his chair, hungry, waiting for the food and then it came mamama. I got as happy as first time but wondered if it will be like last time. But then today again he sid mamama and now I suspect that he is slowly getting the meaning of mama. In his world mama probably means food?

2017 Crikvenica

Our first stop in our vacation happened to be Crikvenica. We didn’t plan a long stay but we stayed for almost a week. Problem is, when I see my nephew and niece play with my kids I melt. I really really miss them and I love to see how Ada is playing with them. My mother was with us so it was full house and chaos but I guess that is always the case with kids.
It was also really nice to see an old childhood friend that I haven’t met for years.
We really loved to be in Crikvenica but after a couple of days we headed further to Pag. 

Prvo stajanje kad smo krenuli na odmor je bilo u Crikvenici. Nismo planirali ostati dugo, ali se produzilo i ostali smo skoro sedmicu. Problem je, sto kad vidim sestrinu djecu kako se igraju sa mojom ja se topim. Bas mi nedostaju i volim gledati kad se Adom igraju. Moja mama je isto bila tu tako da je bila puna kuca i dosta haosa sto je obicno sa toliko djece u pokretu.  Bilo je isto jako lijepo vidjeti jednu staru prijateljicu iz djetinjstva koju nisam par godina vidjela. Nakon Crikvenice smo otisli na Pag.

Almost 40 / Skoro pa 40

On the radio it is said that the heat will reach its peak today.That’s great news! Sitting at the beach I feel I am melting. It is so hot! The water is around 28 degrees. The wind feels like a hot hairdryer in a sauna. If I could I would stay in the water the whole day 🙂 Greetings from Pag!Danas su na radiju izjavili da će danas biti vrhunac toplog vremena. To je super! Na plaži sam i topim se. U vodi je oko 28 stepeni. Na plaži kad puhne vjetar isti je osjećaj kao kad puše vrel fen u sauni.Kad bih mogla ostala bih čitav dan u vodi 🙂 pozdrav sa Paga!9

How to pack clothes / Kako pakovati robu

I have packed the whole day and as I finished I found this video. Stunning how people come up with such ideas. Some of them I will test next time I pack. If everything goes fine tomorrow we are heading towards Balkan…:)

Danas sam čitav dan pakovala i kad sam sve završila pronađem ovaj video. Divim se ljudima koji dođu na ovakve ideje što olakšavaju život. Neke ideje ću probati slijedeći put kad budem pakovala. A sutra ako sve bude kako treba idemo na Balkan… 🙂

Dinosaurie world / Svijet dinosaurija

Adas kindergarten was closed Thursday and Friday so my plan was to do something fun. I had seen that there is a exhibition of dinosaurs for children so I thought that we could spend some time there. I love dinos myself and I think Ada loves them too. She was asking many questions about them but the best question was asked in a very serious tone…Are dinosaurs eating humans? Well, how do you explain that humans didn’t even exist in that time? For grown ups the exhibition is not so interesting but children love it. It was a nice time we spent together.

Kako su Adin vrtić zatvorili četvtrak i petak, tako sam ja htjela da nešto uradimo tih dana. Vidjela sam da ima izložba za djecu o dinosaurima i htjela sam to da vidim. Ada je bila oduševljena, Čak je postavila par pravo dobrih pitanja ali mi je jedno ostalo u sjećanju . Pitanje je bilo postavljeno u vrlo ozbiljnom tonu … Da li dinosaurusi jedu ljude? Kako da objasnim da ljudi tad nisu ni postojali? Za odrasle je izložba bila dosta jednostavna ali djeci je bilo pravo zanimljivo, tako da smo lijepo proveli to vrijeme zajedno:)

Srebrenica

Every year the same questions arise. Questions of which we will never get an answer of. Questions like – how much is a life worth?
How could Europe watch these young men and children die?
How could a human being be so evil to kill innocent people only because they had the “wrong names”?
How can these watch themselves in the mirror? What do they say to their children ? Are they proud of having killed “the enemy”? Even if the enemy was a 13-year old boy? Are their children questioning them as the germans did with their parents?
My million dollar question is -how could you trust a Chetnik would not do anything to you?Why give yourself up to them?
How could you give up the only safe thing that kept you alive- your weapon…(even if the president asks for it)? Be it give it to UN soldier or any other soldier? What was in your mind when you did this fatal mistake?
I hope for your sake that I am wrong and that there is a God that will punish every single one of these criminals having destroyed so many lives while they themselves go on with their life making their own families, getting children and watch their children and grandchildren grow up. All the precious things that they stole from over 8000 boys and men. To avoid this to happen again I believe only in this old latin saying “If you want peace, prepare for war“.

2015-05-04
Foto Staffan Löwstedt Svenska Dagbladet 

Svake godine ista pitanja postavljam. Pitanja na kojima nikad neću dobiti odgovor. Pitanja poput- koliko je jedan život vrijedan?
Kako je mogla Evropa gledati ubijanje mladih dječaka i muškaraca.
Kako može jedno ljudsko biće biti.toliko prokleto da ubija nevine ljude, samo zato što su imali “pogrešna imena”? Kako se mogu gledati u ogledalo? Šta kažu svojoj djeci? Jesu li ponosni što su ubili “neprijatelje”? Iako je neprijatelj bio dječak od 13 godina? Postavljaju li djeca zločinaca pitanja svojim roditeljima šta , kako i zašto? (Kako su radili njemci sa svojim roditeljima)
Moje najbitnije pitanje je kako su mogli vjerovati četnicima da im ništa neće uraditi i predati se njima? Kako su mogli predati jedinu stvar koja ih sigurno drži u život-pušku, ko god da je to naredio bio predsjednik ili ne. Bilo to dati unproforcu ili nekom drugom vojniku. Šta vam je bilo u mislima kad ste tu kobnu grešku uradili?
Za vašu dušu se nadam da sam u krivu i da bog postoji, da svi ovi dušmani koji su nanijeli toliku bol i koji su uništili toliko familija kojima su oduzeli životna pozitivna iskustva poput dobivanje djece i gledanje svojih unuka kako rastu.  Sve ono su vam uzeli dok oni te normalne i vrijedne stvari sami doživljavaju i uživaju.
Da se izbjegne ponovo ovakva fatalna greška ima jedna stara latinska izreka koja nije loša za zapamtiti: Ako hoćes mir, spremaj se za rat!