A cow is a cow / Krava je krava

…but you check her teeth up before you buy her. I couldn’t sleep this night and in the middle of the night I suddenly remember my late grandfather saying these words ” a cow is a cow but check her teeth up before buying her”. Great quote actually considering that it has described the essence of sexual selection. First time I heard it I cried of laughter, especially since my grandfather was drop dead serious about it. He wanted me to be careful which boy to choose when the “time was right for marriage, and not even to talk about the time for children”. I must say I considered him almost crazy when I heard it. However thinking about it though, years to come proved him right ( even though, I admit, it does sound sooo harsch and kind of extreme). In the end it all comes to health. My wealth, childrens health, your partners health, your families health, your husbands families health and so on. You just need one ill person in the (extended) family and the whole family is involved and experiencing constant stress that in worst case tears families apart. So I guess, to make your own ¬†future life easier it is not a bad thing to practice when looking for a partner… no matter how weird and calculating it sounds. 2016-07-31 01.39.08…pa se gledaju zubi kad se kupuje. Ne mogu da spavam i iz vedra neba se sjetih mog “babe” (dido, ali su ga svi zvali babo) rahmetli kad mi je rekao ¬†to mrtav ozbiljan. “Krava je krava pa se gledaju zubi kad se kupuje”. Htio je da pripazim koga budem izabirala kad bude vrijeme za ozbiljnu vezu (udaju) a da ne pricam o mojoj buducoj djeci. Kad sam ovu izreku prvi put cula plakala sam od smijeha koliko je to meni bilo smijesno i apsurdno. Priznajem, smatrala sam “babu” malo cak i otkacenim da tako nesto kaze. Ali cinjenica je da je ta izreka ustvari opisala srz seksualne selekcije. Prodjose godine, ” babe” vec dugo nema, ali se ispostavilo da je bio u pravu. Jer se na kraju sve svede na zdravlje. Moje zdravlje, zdravlje djece, partnera/ muza/zene. Zdravlje njegove/ njezine familije itd. Dovoljna je jedna bolest u (siroj) familiji, da svi budu pod stresom. Tenzije koje nastaju su dovoljne da razore i najjacu familiju. Tako da, koliko to god zvucilo cudno, okrutno i izracunato, stvarno na kraju ispadne da je babo bio u pravu. Ako hoces da olaksas svoj buduci zivot (naravno ne mozes nikad biti 100% siguran) onda treba dobro gledati koga ces izabrati kao buduceg zivotnog partnera.

 

“Me-time” / Moje vrijeme

There is one thing one learns to appreciate when you are a parent and that is THE “me- time”. That is the time where you are entirely deciding what you want to do without a small saboteur running around and calling you every two seconds. In this moment Ada is at home with Ensar for a power nap. Meanwhile I took a cooling bath and now I am thinking about what stocks I can buy next. For me that is resting time ūüôā 20160729_150759Jednu stvar sto naucis cijeniti kao roditelj je vrijeme kad ostanes sam(a). Kad mozes da sam odlucis sta ces bez da jedan mali saboter trckara oko nogu nonstop zivkajuci te. U ovom trenu su Ensar i Ada kod kuce. Ada bi trebala spavati. A ja sam se iskupala, i uz to imam cak vremena razmisljati i planirati koje slijedece dionice da kupim. To je pravi odmor ūüôā

Crikvenica

On the way to Pag, we managed to arrive to Crikvenica before Ada had her burst out and wanted to get out of the car. So we decided to stay here for the night.
The first thing she said was that she wants to see the sea and then when saw it she immediately jumped¬†into the water to (and we did arrive quite late around 20.30-21.00 h) . She really¬†loves¬†water and has ¬†wonderful laugh when she plays. I get overflown by happiness when I watch her being so childishly¬†happy while playing in the water.20160726_195713_resized 20160726_200603_resized Na putu prema Pagu uspijeli smo doci do Crikvenice kad je Ada dobila mali ispad energije i nije vise htjela sjediti u autu. Izasli smo i prvo sto je Ada uradila je rekla da hoce da “ode na more” i otisla do vode i pocela se brckati, a prilicno smo kasno dosli (20.30-21h). Preplavi me sreca kad je vidim kako¬†bude djeciji sretna kad se kupa.20160726_201840_resized

Happy 7th anniversary / 7 godina braka

Long time ago a couple of girlfriends where discussing what we wanted of the future man. Mostly, it was that he should be tall, well trained, blond, brown, educated and so on. I remember I said that I wanted someone I can argue with. I don’t know why I said it, but I really meant it. I guess I know I am not too simple a person to live with :p Then I met a person that I could argue with. ¬†Today it is 7 years since we married. We have had our share of ¬†disagreements but also great moments and a wonderful daughter. Who would have thought that long ago when we first met as students:)2016-07-25 23.10.36 Nekad davno smo ja i par prijateljica diskutovale kakav treba muskarac da bude. Vecina ih je govorila hoce visokog, istreniranog, plavih ili neke ipak radije hoce smedjih ociiju. Trebao je biti skolovan, zaradjivati i.t.d. Ja se sjecam da sam rekla da hocu nekog s kim se mogu svadjati. Ne znam zasto sam to rekla ali sam to stvarno mislila. Vjerovatno zato sto znam da sam malo “teska” :p

Uglavnom sretoh tako osobu sa kojom mogu da se “posvadjam”. Vec 7 godina smo vjencani i imali smo svojih ratova a i fantasticnih momenata. Imamo i jednu prekrasnu kcerku. Ko bih rekao da ce tako biti davne godine kad smo se kao studenti sreli..:)

Up in the air / U letu

After a month and a half in Sweden, with a short trip in Iceland in between, me and Ada where again on the road…or rather up in the air.
The most important of this trip was that I have said good bye to my grandmother. I hope I will see her again, but in the bad shape she is in I do not believe I will. She is getting worse for each day and it is very depressing to see a her deteriorate. Here is one of the last pictures that I probably have with her.
Nakon mjesec i po dana u Svedskoj, sa kratkim putovanjem za Island, ja i Ada smo opet bili na putu
Najvaznije sto sam obavila ovog putovanja je da sam vidjela moju majku i da smo se mogle pozdraviti. Nadam se da cu je opet vidjeti ali tesko. Svakim danom je sve gora i gora. Deprimirajuci je gledati je kako se “raspada”. Ovo je jedna od zadnjh slika sto imam od nje.¬†
IMG-20160712-WA0007Last couple of days have been quite hard. Since I was leaving I had to clean the whole apartment. I had to sort out tons of things. I am still tired of that work but I feel quite satisfied having finally done it. I also cannot thank my family enough because they have been there to help me.
Ada suddenly got very calm while I was clearing up some things. I now know why…
Zadnjih par dana su bili dosta naporni. Posto idem morala sam citav stan ocistiti. Tako da smo tonu stvari sortirali i ocistili. Jos uvijek sam umorna od toga, ali sam zadovoljna sto smo to uradili. Ne mogu se dovoljno zahvaliti mojoj familiji sto su mi pomogli. 
Dok sam sredjivala neke stvari Ada se fino umirila…20160716_103210_resized
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ere are some pics from the time we spent together with the family. / Par slika od vremena sto smo zajedno proveli. 

And finally a pic from our flight to Karlsruhe. We landed in Berlin- Tegel airport. ¬†We were flying with a propeller airplane and I thought it was fun that during the flight I couldn¬īt see them but in the picture they could be seen.
I noticed there was a difference in service between Norwegian air and Air Berlin.  I definitely prefer Norwegian, except that me and Ada liked the chocolate heart we got from Air Berlin.
Isli smo preko Berlina-Tegel u Karlsruhe. Isli smo sa propeler avionom i zanimljivo mi je bilo da se ne vide u letu, ali kad se uslikaju onda se vide.
Dalje sam primjetila razliku u posluzi izmedju Norwegian Air i Air Berlin. Definitivno su prijatni iz Norwegian, osim sto se na kraju leta dobije ukusno cokoladno srce od Air Berlin. 

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What’s happening to the world ? / Sta se desava sa svijetom?

Waking up to the news om what happened to Nice made me sad. Then It made me surprised and after some thinking it made me more surprised that things like this do not happen more often.

Then in the evening there is a coup in Turkey. Following worlds happenings the last 25 years I do not believe these two incidents are by chance. I haven’t figured out exactly how they are connected, actually haven’t had time to give it a thought, but I am sure somehow they are connected. It is like watching a magician. You look at one scene but the real happening is on another spot.In-politicnothing-happens-by-accident.__quotes-by-Franklin-D.-Roosevelt-18Probudih se uz vijesti iz Nice. Rastuzila me vijest, pa me malo iznenadila, pa kad sam malo bolje razmislila onda me iznenadilo da nije ranije doslo do takvih dogadjaja.

Onda navecer cujem za “drzavni udar” (ako je to stvarno to) u Turskoj. Prateci vijesti zadnjih 25 godina prestala sam vjerovati u slucajnosti. Nije mi bas skroz jasno kakvu vezu imaju ali sam sigurna da je imaju. To je ono kao kad madjionicar prikazuje trik. Ti gledas u jednu stvar ali se stvarni dogadjaj desava negdje drugo. Tako mi djeluju Nice i Turska trenutno…

Update Stocks / Azuriranje Dionice

Half the year of¬†2016has passed and¬†I am still working on the portfolio of our savings. As I already wrote previosly (old post)¬†my goal is to have good dividends, preferrably an amount every month. When the Brexit was voted for there was a minor crash at the stock market where I took the¬†opportunity to buy some stocks. Unfortunately I didn¬īt have much but I bought a couple of stocks that I have been following for some time. I bought some H&M, Investor, SEB A¬†and Sagax Pref. I have also improved (¬†1200 kr) with the dividends for the year comparing to last year (280 kr) which is motivating me a little bit. All the dividends I am reinvesting in new stocks.
My next goal when it comes to stocks is to get 10 000kr dividends per year!Presentation1
U polu vremenu od 2016. se jos uvijek bavim sa svojim porftoliom dionica. Kao sto sam u starom postu vec pisala cilj mi je da imamo dobre dividende. Po mogucnost svakog mjeseca. Kad su Britanci izglasali Brexit doslo je do manjeg histericnog pada na berzi. Tu sam iskoristila mogucnost da kupim neke dionice. Nazalost nisam imala nesto puno novca, ali sam ipak uspijela kupiti nekoliko H&M, Investor, SEB A i Sagax Pref dionica.
Poboljsala sam isto svoje dividende poredeci sa proslom godinom tako da me to isto malo motivise. Isto tako sve dividende reinvestiram u nove dionice.
Slijedeci cilj mi je da dobijem 10 000 kr dividendi godisnje!

Shallow – Vampire Diaries / Plitko – Vampire Diaries

In times like this when my grandmother is in very bad shape, I feel very reliefed that I can stay here in the city. Distance is killing when some one close is in such a bad shape that every call you get you expect the worse news. On the other hand it seems to me that I have reduced all my free time to some shallow things to do. Nothing that takes brain energy is done. When I am free in the evening I started to watch THE teenie serial Vampire Diaries. I am completely stuck with it now and would just like to finish it so I can start read or do something constructive.
On the other hand maybe this is exactly what I need in times like this. Maybe it is a system shut down to give the brain some opportunity to think and dream about some eternal life where everyone is young, looking good and happy. In any case it is a weird feelingvampire-diaries-17-so-you-think-you-re-a-vampire-diaries-fan-can-you-remember-who-said-these-memorable-quotes-jpeg-225020U¬†vremenima poput ovih kad mi je majka jako lose, jako mi je olaksavajuce psihicki da mogu biti ovdje u gradu. Daljina je (meni) ubitacna kad je neko tako lose i kad svaki poziv koji ocekujes onaj sa najgorim vjestima. Dalje,¬†imam osjecaj da sam u slobodno vrijeme reducirala sve aktivitete koje zahtijevaju imalo mozga. Nista sto mi je psihicki naporno ne radim. Kad sam slobodna pocnem gledati “naj djeciju” seriju Vampire Diaries. Skroz sam se navukla na nju, i jedva cekam da zavrsi da pocnem nesto konstruktivno raditi i citati.
Ali u drugu ruku je mozda upravo to sto mi treba u ovakvim vremenima. Mozda je to ¬†neka vrsta iskljucenje sistema i odmor za mozak kad mogu sanjati o nekom vjecnom zivotu gdje su svi mladi, zdravi i lijepi… U svakom slucaju jako cudan osjecaj…

Balthazar science park for children / Balthazar park nauke za djecu

If you are close to the city Sk√∂vde I would recommend a visit to Balthazar, a¬†science park for children. It is one of the best¬†I have been to. The concept is fantastic. The main part is¬†science made such to interest children of all ages. There is also a place for taking a “fika” ( coffee, ¬†cakes and some simple dishes are served) . I find it interesting for¬†grown ups also. Here are some pics from the times we have been there.

Ako ste u blizini Skövdea ja bih vam preporucila da odete u Balthazar. To je jedan park nauke za djecu. Jedan od boljih u kojem sam bila. Koncept im je fantastican. Glavni dio je tako uradjen da motivise i aktivira djecu i da im ucini nauku zanimljivom. Ima isto mjesto za kafenisanje. Prodaju tu i par laganih jela. Dobro je sto je ovaj park i interesantan i za odrasle. Evo par slika od ovih par puteva sto smo bili tamo. 20160708_144421

Life is strange / Cudan li je ovaj zivot

It feels strange to visit my grandmother. To see her getting worse. It feels awkward asking her how she is. Obviously, how will a person, that has always been independent,  feel knowing that she will not get better.
I wonder than if the medicine really has improved? What is the point of longer life when the person is completely bound to the bed. Of course I find that medicine has improved, ¬†but seeing my grandmother like this still makes me wonder if it is human to prolong a persons life at any cost. For the ¬†the beloved ones, obviously, we want our grandmother to live as long as possible, but hearing my grandmother say with tired voice “the doctors do not even allow me to die”, then I start to wonder…
After the visit I come home and see the children jump around and scream of laughter this beautiful day.
Life is truely a weird thing…abrahamlincoln137180Cudan je to osjecaj otici kod majke. Vidjeti kako je sve losija i kako polako propada. Cudan je osjecaj pitati je kako se osjeca. Mislim, kako ce se osjecati osoba koja je uvijek bila neovisna i veliki radnik a sada lezi u krevetu? Ne moze sjesti sama a kamoli da uradi nesto drugo. I najgore je sto zna da nece biti bolja. Da li je danasnja medicina onda stvarno napredovala? U sebi mislim – “naravno da jeste”. Ali kad pocnem razmisljati malo upitam se da li je stvarno¬† humano¬†produzivati zivot nekome ako je ta osoba osudjena da bude u krevetu i da u biti nista ne radi bez ikakve mogucnost ka poboljsanju? Naravno mi bi htjeli da nam majka bude sto duze ziva, ali kad cujem majku kako kaze- “ovdje doktori ne daju ni umrijeti” onda se upitam… I onda dodjem kuci i vidim djecu kako veselo skacu u jednom prelijepom danu i pomislim cudan li je ovaj zivot…