Vacation / Odmor

September 5, 2018 ~ au

I must say that I am quite privileged having the possibility to spend so much time on vacation. Of course I know also that it is a traditional “Frauenfalle” as the Germans would say. A woman trap when staying at home with the kids. However that subject I will write about another time. Now I just enjoy knowing that I could visit my family in Sweden, meet them in Bosnia and Croatia. We have had great time in Bosanska Krupa and Crikvenica and to the end in Pag.
After travelling in these places I have been reminded of the impact nationalism and egoism have on these countries. I have had so many themes to talk about that I believe I could write a book. However, in time I maybe even write about it 🙂

Moram reći da imam prilično veliku privilegiju da mogu toliko dugo provesti na odmorima, ili bolje reći putovanjima. Ako je odmor putovati sa djecom to je već druga tema. Uglavnom znam isto tako da je to tipična zamka za žene da budu toliko dugo kod kuće sa djecom, ali to je tema za drugi put. Za sad samo uživam u tome da sam mogla sresti familiju i u Švedskoj i u Bosni i u Hrvatskoj. Bilo nam je baš onako lijepo u Bosanskoj Krupi, Crikvenici i na kraju na Pagu.
Nakon ovih putovanja sam isto podsječana na to šta nacionalizam i egoizam mogu da urade ovim državama. Toliko imam tema o kojima mogu pričati i pisati da mislim da bi bila u stanju knjigu napisati. Ko zna, možda nekada budem o tome nešto i napisala 🙂

Energy boost/ Boost energije

July 10, 2018 ~ au

This weekend was something special.

For long time, to be exact, last time I went somewhere alone without my kids was two years ago. So for two last years, I have had a kid hanging on my legs constantly.

Last two weeks, surprise surprise, they were again sick. On Saturday I just lost it. I couldn’t manage it anymore. I felt I needed some space alone or I would explode. I needed some socialising with friends. Talking on a higher level than a four year old girl.

I grabbed my things, said bye, the kids where crying and crying making me feel bad. Ensar actually also commented and made me feel bad. However, I ignored them all. I had enough, I just left.

The moment I sat down in the bus, (I took the bus it was 10 times cheaper than the train (14 euro!!), I just relaxed. I haven’t relaxed like that for ages. I travelled for four hours. It felt like a spa visit. I listened to a book and I slept.

Talk about that the view of things changes when having kids. I will definitely do that more often.

In Munich I met THE important friends. The ones that have been through my life the last 15 years. It is special. I am so happy I have them. After two days I went back to Karlsruhe. Calmer, more satisfied. With some new insights.

My friends are a treasure that no money can pay. I am so grateful to have them and I really really miss them…

Ovaj vikend je bio nešto poseban.
Dugo vremena, da budem tačna, zadnji put kad sam negdje sama išla bez djece je bilo prije dvije godine. Tako da zadnje dvije godine, nije prošao dan da mi djeca bukvalno nisu visili na nogama. (A prije toga još dvije godine)

I, iznenađenja, opet su zadnje dvije sedmice bili bolesni i kod kuće i u subotu mi jednostavno pukne film. Pa stvarno. Nisam više mogla.
Trebalo mi je malo vremena za sebe, malo mjesta, malo mene ili ću eksplodirati. Trebale su mi prijateljice da možemo malo pričati…na malo viši nivo nego jedna četverogodišnja djevojčica.
Pokupila sam svoje stvari, rekla doviđenja, djeca su plakala, a i Ensar je komentarisao tako da sam se prilično loše osjećala. Ali ne toliko da nisam shvatila da mi treba odmor od svega. Otišla sam…

Sjela sam u autobus, 10 puta je jeftiniji nego voz, i krenula za Minhen. Sjela i opustila sam se. Ja miline!
Nikakva djeca koja vrište, i traže pozornost. Nikakvo plakanje. Nikoga nisam morala paziti da ne strpa nešto u usta. Nisam trebala nikoga hraniti. Milina.
Osjećala sam se kao u spa.
Slušala sam knjigu i spavala. Uživancija!

U Minhenu sam srela moje prijateljice. One koje su sa mnom već 15 godina što kažu i u dobrom i u zlu. Što te spuste na zemlju, što te dignu u nebesa. One što nikad ne žele nešto loše i koje kažu kad nešto pogriješim. Koje ti daju novi uvid u rješenje u tvom problemu koji zapravo nije problem. To su one rijetke prave prijateljice.
Tako sam zahvalna što ih imam. To je bogastvo koje novac ne može kupiti. I stvarno mi nedostaju ovdje…

BRRaaa

May 21, 2018May 22, 2018 ~ au

Today Ada said R for zna first time:) The first word she managed to say with a proper R was (the swedish) “bra” (means good). She got so happy she terrorised us for an hour and a half rolling her R’s. She said Rrriba (means fish) and danced around telling happily that she wants to show her sister (PZ) what she has learned. But the most I loved was the expression of her face the moment she managed to pronounce it correctly. Priceless 🙂
This was the perfect ending after a day in the zoo.

The playground at the zoo. A little bit too high for my taste but it seems Ada likes it.

Igralište u zološkom vrtu. Malo previsoko za mene ali se Adi sviđa…

Danas je Ada uspijela reći R po prvi put. Prva riječ koju je uspijela čisto izgovoriti je bila švedska riječ “bra” koja znači dobro. Tako je bila sretna da nas je sat i po terorisala sa R. Rekla je rrriba i plesala je i pjevala i pričala kako će sve svojoj sestri PZ ispričati.
Ali najljepše mi je bilo vidjeti njezin pogled lica kad je prvi put uspijela reći R. Nezaboravno 🙂
Bio je to perfektan završetak nakon jednog dana provedenog u zološkom vrtu.Highlight of the day was the boat trip / Vrhunac danas je bila vožnja brodićem

Bosanska Krupa

May 7, 2018May 7, 2018 ~ au

On 1.st of May the weather turned quite chilly in Crikvenica so we decided to move on to Bosanska Krupa in Bosnia. My father is also there and he was organizing a barbeque party to celebrate the 1.st of May. Well I thought it will be four of us, my father and maybe someone more. Instead I was lucky to meet half my family 🙂
Last time we were so many on one spot was on my grandmothers funeral.
My uncle “dajdza Adnan” had “the honor” to barbecue the lambs and the rest of us enjoyed.

My surprise when entering our “garden”. Previously in front of the house was a small field where we were playing. However, lately our neighbours seem to have forgotten to take care of it and now we literally have a forest in front.

Koje iznenađenje kad smo ušli autom na imanje. Prije je bila trava ispred kuće gdje smo se i igrali kao djeca. Međutim, nešto naše komšije u zadnje vrijeme zabušavaju dok ne kose travu, koja je prerasla u šumu u međuvremenu.Well, I know it does look a little bit awkward, but it does taste great.
Znam da malo čudno izgleda (za neke) ali dobro šmeka.
Still some missing here… /Još uvijek neki faleZa 1. Maj je malo zahladnilo u Crikvenici tako da smo se mi spakovali i krenuli za Bosansku Krupu. Moj tata je tamo i rekao je da će biti mala roštiljada. Mislila sam biće nas četvero plus tata i možda još neko. Ali umjesto toga sam bila iznenađena i sretna što sam mogla sresti pola familije 🙂
Zadnji put kad nas je toliko bilo na okupu bilo je za majkinu dženazu.
Dajdža Adnan je imao “čast” da pripremi i peće jagnje dok smo mi ostali uživali u kolačima i priči.
Nadam se da će slijedeći prvi maj biti sa još više familije na okupu

Shoppomania/ Šopomanija

April 16, 2018 ~ au

In my deepest misery I was buying medicaments like people buy candies. I said to myself, when I get better I will go to the city and I will buy anything I need.
Last week then I felt a little bit better and went for a spontaneous coffee with a friend…ending up in Tk-maxx AND Roppenheim outlet in France. I bought 3 pairs of Asics, 2 pairs of Levis, shoes for the kids t-shirts, a jacket, sun cream, a day moisteuriser, a night moisturiser, a serum from instytutum and a pair of sunglasses. I have to say I prefer buying things like that than medicaments 🙂

U mojoj najdubljoj bijedi kupovala sam lijekove poput ljudi koji kupuju bombone. Rekla sam sebi čim budem bolje, idem u grad i kupiću SVE što mi treba.
Prošle sedmice sam se tako malo bolje osjećala i odem na spontanu kafu sa jednom prijatljicom … završivši u Tk-maxx I u Roppenheimu u Francuskoj. Kupila sam sebi 3 para Asicsa, 2 para Leviski, tene za djecu, sebi jaknu, kremu za sunce, dnevnu hidrantnu kremu, noćnu hidrantnu kremu, serum od instytutuma i par sunčanih naočara. Moram reći da više volim kupovati stvari poput ovih nego trošiti pare na lijekove 🙂

Spring is coming, girls. Time to dress up!
Cure, dolazi proljeće. Vrijeme se srediti!

Hope / Nada

April 10, 2018 ~ au

A healthy man has thousands of wishes, a sick man has only one…After having have experienced the worst month and a half ever it has made me think of myself. Last week I got tonsilitis, otitis a headache from hell where I had the feeling that my head will literally explode. No painkillers helped. My balance crashed, the fever was high no matter what I took. I dehydrated, I puked so finally the emergency docs had to come to check me up. My ligaments where hurting. I was lying for days in the bed. Whining of pain. sleeping and not sleeping. I don’t even know anymore. In all this misery I wondered how do people having much more serious health problems motivate themselves?

For the first time in weeks I felt good enough to get out from the apartment. It felt wonderful! This simple thing to take a walk is just magic. Unfortunately it is not in Hagapark or at the magic place in Ade in Krupa but still. It is good enough. Today, I had a walk in a small forest and felt hope when I saw the anemones. I am almost through this illness and I am lucky I made it. It is almost over. The spring is back! I am back…I hopeZdrav čovjek ima hiljade želja, a bolestan samo jednu … Nakon što sam doživjela najgorih mjesec i po dana otka znam za sebe, navelo me da razmislim malo o sebi. Prošle nedjelje sam dobila gnojnu aginu, upalu usiju, glavobolju iz pakla gdje sam imala osećaj da će mi glava bukvalno eksplodirati. Nijedan lijek protiv bolova nije pomogao. Moj balans se poremetio, temperatura je bila visoka bez obzira koje lijekove sam uzela. Dehidrirala sam se, tako da je na kraj doktor iz hitne dosao da me provjeri. Zglobovi su me bolili. Lezala sam danima u krevetu. Plakala sam od bolova. Spavala sam a i nisam. Vise i sama ne znam. U cijeloj ovoj situaciji sam se pitala kako se ljudi, koji imaju mnogo ozbiljnije zdravstvene probleme, motivišu?

Po prvi put u zadnjih par sedmica sam se osjećala dovoljno dobro da izađem iz stana. Bilo je divno! Jedna obicna stvar poput šetnje moze da bude poput magije. Nažalost,setnja nije bila u Hagaparku ili na čarobnom mjestu na Adama u Krupi, ali ipak dovoljno za sad. Prošetala sam malo kroz šumu i osjećala sam nadu kada sam vidjelao anemone. Skoro sam prevazisla ovu bolest i mogu reci da sam sretna za to. Skoro je gotovo. Proljeće se vratilo! Vratila sam se i ja… nadam se

Flu from hell!/ Gripa iz pakla!

March 13, 2018 ~ au

I am sooo fed up with the colds, stomach viruses, bronchitis, the flu from hell and on top of that pneumonia and otitis. Since Thursday I have mostly spent my time taking care of Ada. She was having high fever and hurting joints. On Sunday I felt she got better, at least the high fever was gone.
Having sleep depriviation I hoped for at least one night with some good sleep. Well, I hoped too much! In the night Ada was screaming of pain. It was freaking me out. It took me long time to find out that she has pain in the ears because she was just crying and screaming not telling me what the problem was. At least ibuprofen helped!

Then came Monday and Ensar that was supposed to go to US early in the morning was in such a bad shape (pneumonia and otitis) he had to cancel the trip and now he has to stay at home the whole week.

After having left Adrian in the kindergarten, Ada wanted to go t o a museum. (Un)fortunately, museums are closed in mondays So we strolled around and went for a delicious icecream. Tomorrow is a new day and a new beginning.

Dosta mi je prehlade, stomačnih virusa, bronhitisa, gripa iz pakla i na vrh svega upala pluća i ušiju.
Od četvrtka sam uglavnom provodila svoje vrijeme vodeći računa o Adi.
Imala je visoku temperature, groznicu i bol u zglobovima. U nedjelju mi se činila bolje pa sam se ponadala barem jednoj mirnoj noći gdje se mogu fino naspavati.
Međutim, Ada je u po noći poćela vrištati od bolova i nikako je nisam mogla smiriti da mi kaže šta je.
Nakon jedne vjećnosti sam skontala da je uši bole. Barem je ibuprofen pomogao!
Onda je došao ponedjeljak, kad je Ensar trebao letiti u Ameriku. Ali kad sam ga vidjela ujutru bio je u tako lošem stanju da je morao je otkazati put, a sad mu valja biti kod kuće cijelu sedmicu.
Nakon što je smo odvezli Adriana u vrtić, Ada je htjela da idemo u muzej. Nažalost, muzeji su zatvoreni ponedjeljkom, tako da smo malo šetale u okolini muzeja i onda smo se počastile sa predobrim sladoledom (i cappuccinom).
A za sutra vrijedi parola novi dan, novi početak.

Skating / Šlicuranje

January 25, 2018January 25, 2018 ~ au

Inspired as we (Ada) are from Frozen and the fact that Ada got skates from her auntie, she badly wanted to go skating last weekend..
Theoretically, I wanted it too BUT last time I had been skating is some 20 years ago. And I was not good in skating back then either. So my fear was to break my legs and make a disaster show in public instead of simply showing Ada how to skate.
Then I forced myself to come a little bit outside my comfort zone… and I loved it 🙂
I felt like the ice queen at least Ada looked at me like that. People around us probably saw a person more like Bambi on ice. Who cares though! We had fun 🙂
Our fan club / Naši navijači 🙂
Inspirisane kako jesmo (bolje reći kako je Ada inspirisana) od Ledene Kraljice i činjenica da je dobila šlicure od svoje tetke, htjela je da ide na šlicuranje prošlog vikenda..
Teoretski, sam i ja htjela ALI zadnji put kad sam se šlicurala je prije nekih 20 godina a ni tad nisam bila dobra u tome. Strah me zato bio da slomim noge i napravim neki mega haos među narodom umjesto da u miru pokažem Adi kako se šlicurati.
Natjerala sam sebe da izađem malo iz svoje komforne zone i mogu reći da sam uživala u tome.
Osajećala sam se kao Ledena Kraljica, tako me Ada gledala, iako je su ljudi oko nas najvjerovatnije gledale osobu koja liči na Bambi na ledu.
Ali koga briga. Bitno je da nam je bilo super 🙂

Rough night / Naporna noć

January 18, 2018 ~ au

While in Sweden I heard that in the kindergarten there where 19 kids with the stomachflu. Imagine my happiness having missed that horror. It is not even strange that the kids get it considering that they are not going outdoors… at all. I really have an issue with that and must say I don’t understand that philosophy.
Unfortunately, I didn’t stay happy too long. Two evenings back, Ada started complaining about having pain in the stomach and went to bed quite early. Ada going to bed early is a clear sign that she is not well. She didn’t sleep too long before the hell broke loose.
My husband was taking care of her because I cannot stand someone vomiting. But Ada was so brave even counting the times she was vomiting. Poor thing. Luckily, today she is better and I keep my fingers crossed that Adrian doesn’t get it…
Dok smo bili u Švedskoj čula sam da je u vrtiću bilo 19.oro djece koje su dobile stomačni virus. Tako da zamislite sreće što smo to promašili.
Mislim da nije ni čudno što djeca fasuju te stvari, kad ih nikako ne puštaju van iz zgrade. Stvarno mi je to problem i ne razumijem tu filozofiju.
Nažalost, nije me sreća dugo pratila.
Prije dva dana se Ada počela buniti da je stomak boli.Čak je otišla leći jako rano što je znak da nešto nije u redu. Nije dugo trajalo kad je poćeo pakao.
Mogu sve skoro gledati ali kad neko povraća meni se život smuči, tako da je onda Ensar bio sa Adom skoro čitavu noć dok je ona jadnica povraćala.. Ada, srce malo, je brojala koliko je puta povratila i meni raportirala (kao da nisam znala). Jadnica.
Srećom danas je već bolje i sad se samo nadam da i Adrian ne fasuje isto to.

Tekniska museet / Tehnički muzej

December 30, 2017 ~ au

For the first time we, the kids, Ensar and I flew together. We arrived to Stockholm last Tuesday and hoped for snow, but it was nowhere to be seen.
One of the highlights in Stockholm was the Technical museum. The kids loved it. There were so many things to explore and it is also interesting for the grown ups. Nice to visit if in Stockholm.

Po prvi put smo djeca, Ensar i ja zajedno letili. Stigli smo u Štokholm prošlog utorka i nadali smo se snijegu međutim nigdje ga nije bilo ni za lijeka.
Vrhunac za djecu je bila posjeta u tehničkom muzeju. Toliko interesantni stvari je bilo za vidjeti…i za djecu i za odrasle. Tako da ako ste igrom slučaja u Štokholmu predlažem posjetu u tehničkom muzeju.

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