One year / Godina dana

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Danas dan je tačno godinu dana kako si ti, draga moja tetka, napustila ovaj svijet.
Nedostaju mi naši razgovori, tvoja podrška u svemu, tvoji savjeti. tvoja pomoć u disiciranju problema u subprobleme gdje ti se na kraju problem čini tako malen.
Nedostaje mi “hranjenje riba” i uživanja na našoj obali.
Oduševila bi se kad bi vidjela kolika je Ada narasla.
Žao mi je što nikad nisi zagrila Adriana, ali mi je barem drago što si ga vidjela preko skypa.
Adrian obožava onog majmuna što si Adi poklonila. Toliko ga voli da ga je skroz razklimao.

Today it is one year since you, my dear auntie, passed away. I miss our talks, your advices, your support in anything I wanted to do. Your help dissecting a problem into pieces making it seem small.
I miss our feeding the fish and just breathing in the air at “obala” (beach)…
You would wonder how big Ada has grown…

I am sad you never could hug Adrian, I am happy you saw him at least over Skype.
He loves the monkey you gifted to Ada. He actually liked the monkey so much he almost tore it apart :/.

Osjećam se krivom što ti onaj zadnji put nisam uzvratila poziv. Htjela sam ali samo malo kasnije. A to malo kasnije ispade prekasno…
Taj osjećaj krivice nikada ne nestane…
Pitam se da li si htjela meni nešto reći? Znam da si osjećala da ti se približava kraj.
Žao mi je što nisi vidjela kuće kako izgledaju sada kad su balkoni postavljeni. Znam da si to godinama htjela da postavimo, ali nismo imali novaca. Ustvari prioritirale su se druge stvari.I feel guilty that I didn’t call back when you called me last time. I wanted to but just a little bit later, and a little bit later it was too late. This guilt never fades…
I wonder if there was something you wanted to tell me. I knew you felt your end was coming.
I am sad you didn’t see how the house looks with the balcony. I know you wanted it for years. There was never money for that…or rather we prioritized other things.
I koliko god čudno ili smiješno zvučalo…kad god vidim onaj peparmintpiling od Ingea, sjetim se tebe.
And as funny it might sound but every time I see Ingea pepparmint scrub it reminds me of you.

Nedostaješ mi !
Miss you !

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